Summary of my journey

 

            As I prepared to write this summary of my journey I had a very difficult time trying to find a starting point.  I truly did not want to revisit the individual I was when this adventure started.  It is amazing to me just how complicated I had made my own life.  The hole I had dug for myself was deep and slippery and I saw no way to climb out.  If I had only known the ride I was in for!

            I decided a good way to get started on this summary would be to review the journals I had prepared from August 30th to October 19th.  I tried to find common themes from the journal, both the positive and the negative issues I was dealing with.  What I found through reviewing the journals was that the words, thoughts and emotions contained within were the result of my desire to make significant changes in my life.  I came to understand that those changes would involve not only my fellow employees, but also my family and friends.  I needed to be in agreement with my professional life as well as my personal life. 

            When GTM first started the CTRG program, I participated from an attitude of “this will be great for others, but I don’t need this stuff.”  I didn’t buy into the concepts that were being presented.  “The person is more important than what they do” was not a principal I could easily understand.  I have always felt that what I did defined who I was.  I did not apply the concept of the “individual”.  As my journey progressed I learned that the concept really meant that by recognizing the individual for who they were, what their abilities are, how they perform, what motivates them, and how they learn is more important than what they produce.  By tailoring my involvement with the individual based on these concepts I can make their work experience rewarding by helping them to grow with confidence and pride in their achievements.   The results are self-producing in an environment where the worker is more important than the work.  I have learned to balance the individuals’ needs with the Company’s goals.

            I think my greatest flaw at the time I started this journey was that I had a goal I wanted to reach and was going to do everything I could to reach it.  I saw mistakes by others as a direct attack to my goal.  I approached everything from a standpoint of how would this affect me and how do I benefit from it.  If I saw self-preservation in something I participated wholeheartedly, if I saw an obstacle or conflict, I deflected it away from me.  This thought process perpetuated my negative attitude towards others.  The significant change in my thinking comes from the belief that how I affect the success of others through my insuring their success guaranties my success.  I look at my role not from a standpoint of  “Ruler” but from one of “servant”.  How can I best serve the individuals in my care?  How do I insure their success regardless of the cost to me?   My answer to these questions is to bring consistency and patience into all my dealings with people.  To see things from the eyes of the individual, to base results on their success.  If the employees respect me and look to me for direction, then I need to own their respect and honor their needs as employees and people.  I need to concentrate on how to motivate them to solve problems and less on why there is a problem.  I own the problems and challenges of not only my department, but of all I come in contact with if I truly want the success of others.  If I educate instead of dictate I can help all individuals reach their potential.  In so doing I create a win/win situation and we all celebrate the success.

            I have brought sincerity to my want for change and for my participation in the success of others.  Sincerity was lacking in my motivation prior to this journey.  People in my life now know that they can deal with me openly and honestly with no hidden agendas.  I have seen the results first hand in both my work environment and in my personal life.  Relationships are now based on trust and respect for the individual and not on what benefit to me does the individual offer.  

            I have received a tremendous amount of support in this journey.  I thank all involved for the respect they have offered me.  This has allowed me to be as honest with myself as I needed to be.  Personal growth means change, change means pain.  “No gain without pain”.  The investment made in me, and the benefits I have realized from the changes in my life, I can’t repay.  I truly enjoy my life so much more today than when this journey started.   

            If I had to summarize my change in thinking to one sentence it would be; lead from a position of service to others, being a good steward of their talents.

            “Please keep your hands and feet inside the ride at all times”.  What a ride!

Thank you

Mark Hayes

Operations Manager

GTM Stores

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